myself, anymore

I can't begin
To write it all down
And explain the reason
For the twisted frown

It all closes
Edges slowly back
I feel my frail self worth
Crumble and crack

Laying on the ground
Bleeding and sore
I can only give love
Not much more

My heart just
Can't stop bleeding
Gently closing off
Every feeling

As I sink lower
The horror closes in
My lungs suddenly
Made from tin

Silence everywhere
All around
Not a word
And not a sound

I feel the claw
From deep inside
Reminding me
I cannot hide

From who I am
Or where I go
There is one thing
That I know

My skin is warm
The smiles are real
And now I'm not
Sure how I feel

Painfully unsure
Uncharacteristically shy
My thinning nerves
Are beginning to fry