msjordison

Loss, it is a painful and soul wrecking loneliness that only the lucky will never feel. However big or small it is it leaves you hollow and full all at the same time, full of regret and sorrow, but like a large part of you is missing, a part that will never be the same ever again. It is a pain I would wish on no one, no matter what they have done, a pain that no one should ever have to endure, but one so profound and largely available it chokes my very core to write about it. I have felt loss too often lately, too entirely and too raw, losses so sudden it feels as if the ground has been ripped from beneath my feet at a rate that can only be

For all the words in the world I cannot fathom who or what Makes the changes That decide the out come I cannot find the style to break Hearts and souls with letters The end product does not Justify the means It brings the break of neutral The grind of everything Gears that move all too quickly Through the decisions I have no choice over Too tired to break But too awake to shut down I shudder out of control Off a track I never started on To train has derailed The fear has crept in The end is near But I am too afraid to meet it With eyes screwed tightly shut I walk down a path of disillusionment That brings me to Noth